Monday, December 13, 2010

Identity and the mind response

The Darwin College Podcast by Raymond Tallis was really helpful and enlightening to a way in which a person should handle thinking about identity.  The idea that we are more like our neighbor of the same age than our two-year-old self, even though we consider our two-year-old self to be the same person as we are now was incredibly interesting.  The idea of personal identity over an extended period of time wherein we expect and see ourselves as ourselves, fix in that identity, and never changing is really interesting and strangely surreal.  I say surreal because at times I see myself acting in a way that I may have acted as a child or reminding myself to act like an adult.  In these ways, the verb "act" implies that I have not changed at all since my childhood self, only that I have a larger repertoire.
The part about identity and group identity where Tallis is speaking about the audience having the identity of an audience spiked my interest.  The idea of group identity, and at any given time, a group identity coalescing into personal identity is strange when identity is identity and not changing.  A = A as Tallis states.  For example, a chef becomes part of the group of the chef, and that possible transforms the way in which that person viewers their identity.
I also really enjoyed the segment about "I" as an allusion and truly nonexistent, only a construct of language.  This part bled into some of the ideas discussed in "metaphors we live by" and I began to think of "I or me" as a metaphor so deeply ingrained and apart of consciousness that it is impossible to think of oneself as being only part of a whole and not a singular entity. 
Overall, Tallis is incredibly intelligent and this podcast was a pleasure to listen to.  I don't feel like I can expand or repute any of the discussion.

"The not so black and white about black" (first project)









"The not so black and white about black"
Chalk, leather, high gloss paint, wood, hardware

This piece was an exploration in my fascination with the color black.  I tried to address the color and its textural manifestations without using or alluding to its connotations and symbolic uses.  For example, I didn't want the work to immediately reference darkness, mourning, elegance, evilness, nighttime, death, or any other association.  I chose the rectangle as a slight reference to minimalist art and for its simplicity in form to try and avoid the other implications of meaning that a different shape would cause.  I choose to put legs on the rectangular form to have the work speak about staging and framing that exists in art, theatre, and music.  The stage interests me in relation to this work because it is object that drastically affects the view of the subject but it is also secondary to the subject.  In most cases the notion of frames and stages exist in this realm of false nonexistence where in the viewer must pretend these objects are not there.  Functioning like a pair of glasses that helps the viewer experience work, or music, or acting, but is supposed to be backgrounded.  Stages and frames are painted black to blend into shadows and not command attention but black in other manifestations like black and white photography or black and white abstract expressionist paintings commands the highest level of attention. 
The chalk came from previous idea in the life of this work where I was going to line the inside of a rectangular wooden box with pure black pigment, thinking that the pigment would absorb all light and the viewer would experience the rectangle as a closed form when it actually wasn't.  It would be a stage where there actually was no stage.  This however did not work because the pigment still reflected light and the corners were still visible and apparent.  Then I thought the chalk could be a "subject" on the pseudo stage.  A small perfectly round pile of black chalk in the middle of a black rectangle would be visually interesting because of the textural differences and slight differences in the shadows and diffusions and reflection of light. 
I was playing around with the chalk, experimenting to find the best application for the pile, when discovered how interesting different colors of chalk look next to each other and when blended how they become the color black.  I kind of wanted to show this, so I decided to make the rainbow coming out from under the form.  The sides of the black rectangle were high gloss so at some point they were white where it reflected white light directly back into the viewer’s eyes.  I thought that the reflective ability of the high gloss would be interesting intersecting with the colored chalk because the refection of the chalk would cause the black to actually be the reflected colors and not black at all. 
The viewers’ critique of the work was that there were design-like elements that seemed superfluous and that the work was slightly dull or unexciting.  I agree with the designerly commentary because the colored chalk in a perfect line in a rainbow did take on that feel.  The dullness comment was something I slightly feared because the simplicity and overuse of the rectangular from has danger of putting work in an unexciting realm.  Also my interest in the color black is difficult to communicate to someone who is uninterested in it.   

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Errol Morris Documentary Film on Stephen Hawking

I had been reading "A Brief History of Time" when the documentary of the same titled was screened at school.  The overlap of information was interesting.  Many of the things Hawkings said in the film were quoted straight from the book.  I really wanted to see the documentary to unravel some of the mystery of who Stephen Hawkings is.  The book is somehow sterile in its manner of writing, giving facts and information but not much emphasis on Hawkings viewpoints of the importance and meanings of these discoveries.  He explains what the discoveries might mean to the rest of the world, like religion and the possibility of proof a lack of a grand scheme or creator.  But Hawkings doesn't ever devulge what that particularly means to him.  With a human of that intelligence, I was extremely interested in his personal views and his emotional side.  Could it possibly be that he is solely a man of science and is not truly upset about his physical predicament, or that he has no opinion of the meaning of the proof of no creator.  It would vastly change the structure of many societies.  The documentary left me with more questions than it answered.  The part where his mother was speaking about how Hawkings only dedicated himself to the quest of knowledge after he got sick, and that if it hadn't been for this sickness (that effects few people) then these questions in science would still be unanswered, stinks so strangely of divine intervention that its sickening.  

A few thoughts on the personal works presentation

So Blogger does not work with powerpoint, and powerpoint does not work with microsoft word.  It is impossible to export powerpoint into anything else besides powerpoint.  After 3 hours of fails I decided to upload the images that I used for my powerpoint from my computer.  Urg.. I hate technology. 

Previous Personal Work Presentation






























images of "Home Sweet Home"







"Home Sweet Home"
Sugar, graphite, wood, hardware

images from anxiety of influence